A Little Complaining

For the most part, I think that my blog posts have been pretty positive about this experience. & it is a great one! I enjoy the company of my lovely, wonderful flat mates; I have interesting classes; an easy schedule; & a beautiful place to live. I have amazing people back home who are keeping in touch & remembering me, which probably makes me happier than anything else. But because my poor boyfriend Scott has been the only one to listen to my whining for the past couple weeks, I think that I will make a short list of five things that I would like to complain about :) Do not feel obligated to read this.

1. I am really tired of cooking my own food. & if I have to cook my own food, I want an oven. It has only been two weeks, but I want some real food. I am not a gourmet chef. The fanciest dish that I have cooked up since I have been here is pasta with pesto (& the pesto was bought from the store). I want a meal. Some Fazoli's to be precise. & I want some cake.

2. These headaches are seriously getting on my nerves. Starting in my junior year I started getting headaches. They continued throughout my senior year & actually subsided a bit my first year of college (oh goodness, I nearly typed uni). I had a couple horrible weeks my first semester my sophomore year, but they had gone away completely by the time I left for England. Well, they missed me. They are back. I have had one every single day. They hurt. They make me irritable. They make it hard to read for class.

3. I have way too much free time. Wow, I never thought I would say that. But seriously. I have nine hours of class a week. That is it. Monday through Wednesday I only have one class a day. One class that lasts a whopping... one hour. The rest of the day I sit in my room & stare at the computer screen. Maybe make some food or read a book. Write mail. It is killing me. I need a hobby.

4. I am lonely. There are nice people here, but none that I have really bonded with entirely & made life long friends with or anything. I don't have anyone where at any time I can shoot them a text message or knock on their door & just sit down & chat. Or watch movies. Or laugh with. Or go get dinner with. Or go into town & clothes shopping with. Or hug. I don't think I have touched another person since Aunt Nicky dropped me off here. It sucks. Sometimes, I get a little bit discouraged & miserable about it. I am a social being, & not having close friends is making me a bit of a glum chum.

5. Of course, I am missing everyone terribly. I only get to talk to my boyfriend for a good length of time on the weekends. We have to put up with short messages, wallposts, & emails throughout the week. I miss him. I miss his hugs. I miss him making me tasty hot chocolate. I miss making fun of him. I miss playing yahtzee with his family. It is sad. I feel bad that he has to deal with my tears & mood swings. I miss my family (though I'm pretty sure I am talking to them more here than I do when I am at home!) I miss eating dinner with them & watching movies with them & just sitting in the same house as them. I miss my cat :( I miss my friends. I hate that I have scarcely spoken to any of them since I have been gone. A facebook message or wallpost here & there, but I haven't actually kept in consistent contact with anyone except for Scott & my family. It sucks. It makes me a little depressed. & of course, you knew this was coming I am sure, I miss my darling little children at home. They are always guaranteed to make my day when I am down, so I hate not seeing them. I hate that they will have grown so much when I get home. I hope they won't have forgotten me. Emory, Myles, Maya, Shelby, Parker, Hannah, Elizabeth, Gustavo, Isaac, Elliott, Hailey, Aisley, Samantha, & Evan - I miss you. Sophia Marie & Evan Paul - don't forget Aunt Rach, I love you.

Okay. Mopeyness is over, be expecting another bright & sunshiney post in the near future! & to end this whole thing on a good note, here is a beautiful scene from the amazing movie Easy A that I have been watching non-stop ever since I got here. Enjoy! :)